Some People Think We're Stupid But We're Not

This is my form of being productive on a day off. So I don't feel as if my brain is turning into complete wasted Kinetic Energy. Also before we get started don't take to strong the post below. It was done in drunken stupor - It holds some but not a lot of weight (At least for me). I'd like to think my rational thinking mind has more influence than that done on liquored up impulses of dark little thought out i truths.

LET THE BRAINING BEGIN!

As of late work is beginning to become increasingly monotonous and bullshit. I imagine that's what happens with every job ; mostly every job. I really did not have high expectations, I just expected myself to last longer in the mind numbing monster of a work force. It's a bit embarrassing to feel completely drained from doing something so robotic and routine. Something that requires nothing but initial human reactions (even though some of us are incapable of just being a decent human). I get by with songs in my head (Thank The Gods for KC!) , thinking out my life , and getting giddy when adorable seniors come by for their coffee. It's possible that I'm just angry that all the people watch in the break room is Politics or Sports. If you know me, you know I could care less for either. I'm a bad American.

I find myself amassing major pet peeves. This is new territory for me, nothing used to bother me enough to be urked by it. They mostly surface at work, but there are a few that have busted out at my apartment with my roommate. I hate when people don't say "Hi" back to me before they order, I'm not your servant - greet me ya dick. I believe customer service has ruined us as a species. I hate that people don't have enough manners to know that you throw away your trash before you leave a food court ; That we're all mostly on the verge of a break down from impatience and self entitlement. I have more to do at my job than to "serve" you. I'm providing a service, treat me with respect and I'll do the same with you, so smile at me when I smile at you. I'm not nice for my health (I really am, but they don't know that)! Those are most of my qualms with work, aside from the fact that they value your existence only as far as you can make it into work. I'm amazing, treat me like I am. My roommate is fairly good, most of the time, as much as I complain about her to other people. I love her to death, she's just a tad overpowering from time to time. Negativity is like poison to me, I try to block it as much as possible. But that's not what really bugs me. I've finally weeded her from keeping tabs on the cleaning (1 for me). But I hate when she gets ice and doesn't refill the trays, I don't know why that bugs me. I even have a tray to put all the ice in to use so you can then refill the trays. But she just doesn't. Maybe it's because I do it out of habit - who knows. It's small but bugs me nonetheless.

I need to make more time for myself to read. I feel my intelligence , the little I do have, slipping away. I never lost my fire for learning, for actually figuring out stuff. But now there just seems like there's no time for it. It also sucks trying to defend the fact that I'm still smart while not being in any form of educational outlet. It's really just not that easy for me, It's not black and white. I've spent the past 6 months trying to save some form of cash and still managed to do the exact opposite (I'm not a money spending fiend either). Things come up, I know that - It just sucks that THINGS do come up on a regular basis for me. Ashly phrased it best "All of your shit doesn't work" LOL Livin the minority lower class life is glorious. I'm having fun, even though my ass is broke. haha Thing will get better, they can only go up from here right?

I just hate that this life is all about presentation rather than substance. I blame the males of the species for creating the concept of beauty.

P.S. I've taken a lesson from Amanda on using the labels function. It's quite fun!